just one of those days...

spring will be fantastic...

it really really will...

i am so excited...

but today was a crazy day...

i got backed into by another car on the way to work this morning...

she felt so bad...

and it wasn't terrible damage...

but it scared me to death...

and just started the day like alsjkdfa;lsjdf....

and then work was :( ...

i can't wait until ruth comes back 

and gives me something real to work on...

grades are posted...

i got a B in history...

   do they let you teach history 

   if you can't get a good grade in the class???

and dumbest thing ever... B+ in book of mormon... 

   i am so done with religion as part of my gpa.... 

but i got an A in statistics!!!!! :D

yes that's right.... i did it!!!!!

and there are other random frustrations...

but i'll get over it...

but there were also random happinesses..  

   (like compact shelving in the library for one!)

and i will choose to dwell on those!!!

Wow...

I am officially totally and completely done with an entire year of college!!!!!

Half of me is jumping up and down saying Yay and Happiness...

No more classes!!! and Spring Term fun!!!!

But the other half of me is dying for the people who are leaving...

I will be so lost without them here with me...

I am not the same person I was in August...

I'm not a different person either...

I'm just Rachel the same and very different...

if that makes any sense beyond my head...

I feel a lot of things right now...

Excited, Joyful, Anxious, Sad, Lonely, Happy, Scared, Surprised, Relieved, Giggly, Loved ...

but mostly I am just Grateful...

Thanks to everyone who has touched my life this year...

in the small ways, in the biggest ways, in ways they will never know...

You are part of me... and I cannot express my love and gratitude to you.

Where did the time go?

once upon a time...

Once upon a time… in a far away land… there lived some beautiful girls… their names were Allie, Rachel and Sarah. They were distracted. It was finals week at BYU and they were incredibly busy but for some reason they were not very good at focusing on what they needed to. Allie was missing someone. Rachel was thinking about someone one else. And Sarah was just singing. Rachel was attempting to write two five page papers (anybody know lots about the civil rights movement!) and then do her statistics, Allison was trying to understand glucose by hitting herself in the face and Sarah was searching for her mp3 player so that she could sing along to something new. All of the sudden Allie jumped up and shouted, “Field Trip!” And she ran away to the creamery. Meanwhile, Sarah did a very bad thing… She turned on Disney love songs, which made Rachel even more distracted. (Side Note: Heather Jean should be a part of this story but she was being a wonderful example and cramming in her bedroom instead being silly and distracted.) Rachel and Sarah sang a song all about Rachel’s giggly life right now. And then Allie came back (after buying bread and meat and something else) and she brought a friend – Wistie!! Wistie was having similar problems due to the fact that she hates science or maybe science hates her. (What’s the difference between gravity and elctromagnetism?) Ahhh!!!

Alright here we go… It’s time to buckle down and get this paper done. “You can learn to do it. Pull yourself together and you’ll pull through it!”

wonderful, wonderful day

early to bed, early to rise... what a wonderful day that makes...

i got up at 6:00 and went to the temple with the most amazing people today...

sarah and curtis are wonderful!!!!

it was so beautiful to be there to start my day...

that will definitely be part of my spring and summer plans...

when we got back i found out sad stuff though... we accidently left behind allison and wistie (i am so sorry girls!)... it was a few minutes late and i hadn't seen their lights and yeah... it was the bad part of the day...

but after i went and found out what i have to do to make it up to them (which i will!!!!!) i came back and i did my new testament final... which had some things that were exactly what i needed to have right now...

and then i studied a little and went to work and figured out my life and went to a stats review with dr. reese (if anyone needs to take stats next fall make sure that you get him!) 

and then i spent a ton of time on my phone... seriously i never realized just how grateful i am to have a good phone that lets me talk to all the fantastic people in my life!!! i would be lost without my phone (sarah would be really lost without hers too :D)  but it was so great to talk to amanda (from missouri) and grandpa and mom and heather and allison!

i am so excited for spring... i am living with heather and alyssa... and allie is right across the hall!!!!! (i am so glad i have gotten to know her... she is one of the most amazing people ever... we are so much alike! giggly girls!)  and we are going to go the manti pageant and the shakespeare festival and vegas (to see phantom of the opera!!!!) and to arches and everywhere else that we can possibly think of!!!!!! and i am just working and taking one credit  so i will have plenty of time... except i will still get up early - heather jean and i are going to run every morning at 6:00 (except the mornings I go to the temple)

ahh... finals are upon us... but i am surprisingly not stressed out... between tylor and zack's blessing last night and the temple today with curtis and sarah i just feel amazing!  but wish me luck anyways!

p.s. i am in love with pandora... best thing ever!!!

too fast...

i'm not ready for this...

life has been too perfect...

and change is too quick...

and hard...

i am so grateful for the people in my life that won't change though...