Sometimes I laugh at myself

Today was one of my long days on campus. And by on campus today I mean in the MPE building. I seriously live in that place on Wednesdays excepting our weekly little jaunt out to Cafe Rio for lunch.

The first thing I have is supervision with my professor and one of my classmates. I love supervision. There is no way I could get through seeing my clients without working with my professor and processing with my classmates.

Today I was sitting there listening to my classmate discuss her case when I reached up to touch my ears and realized that I had on two totally different earrings. One of them has a sparkly thing and then is long and dangly with two pearls while the other is just a small tiny little pearl. I just grabbed pearls on my way out the door this morning and must have accidentally grabbed one of each! Oops!

I smiled at myself and when my professor commented I explained my situation. We all had a good laugh about my silly mistake. You are welcome to laugh too. Some days are just like that!

Interestingly though I found out that my professor doesn't have her ears pierced either! I've never really met anyone outside of my family like that. Her words were - I don't see the point of putting holes in my body for fashion. I'd never taken it that far but I like it. Dad wouldn't let us when we were little because he didn't want it infected and by the time I was older I didn't see the point.

Life via Instagram

With my best friend Heather before she leaves for her LDS mission to London. 

With my roommate Kate at the end of a night out on the town. 

My apartment during the bridal shower Amy and I threw for Kate. 

With Kate during her bridal shower. 

Sarah sandwich during a cohort karaoke night! 

Don't worry

One of my biggest flaws is that I am extremely self critical. I have been since before I can remember. Sometimes this trait is really beneficial - it means I push myself to be better and am constantly looking for ways to improve. However, it also means that sometimes I am overly critical and it gets in the way of me accomplishing things. 

Recently I found this quote and it has been really important for me.

"Don’t worry about how inexperienced you are or think you are, but think about what, with the Lord’s help, you can become."

—Henry B. Eyring, November 2011

I really find myself feeling this way in a lot of areas in life, dating, my therapy, finances, healthy living. I am so inexperienced. But that's not what I should focus on. I should focus on the potential I have and I should focus on the fact that the Lord is going to help me do that. 

Totally changed my attitude in the past few weeks and even though I am really overwhelmed (bridal shower, RS lesson, 4 page paper, trip home, 8 page paper and presentation, group paper, 8 page paper, kate's wedding all in the next three weeks - not to mention normal daily tasks of working, seeing clients, etc...) I have been actively trying to not be discouraged. 

It's hard and I really have to work to change my self talk. But slowly but surely it's working. And wouldn't you know it - I kinda like the girl in the mirror. 

coloring

grad school is awesome.

my professor passed out crayons today. which was a good thing because i have zero attention span for class anymore. 3 hours is simply too long to have to sit still! 

she told us to color our favorite childhood memory. 

i drew lake powell of course. 

we leave in 51 days for our trip this year. i am SO excited. 

so my question to you: what would your drawing have looked like? what's your favorite childhood memory? why? 

catch up

i have this problem.

i have a compulsive need to be caught up before i write something new on my blog.

if i haven't written in a while i feel like i have to catch up before i write again. the problem with that is that it usually takes a little bit of time to write a catch up. so it's hard to do. because i'm busy. but the problem is that in not catching up right away i get farther behind and the amount i have to catch up just gets bigger and bigger. until all of the sudden it's been four months since i last blogged. which is crazy! i've had this blog for four years now and i've never gone this long without writing.

so i finally decided that i wasn't going to try to catch up. i'd write a quick list of things to note from the last few months and then start trying to do it right now.

so things to note from the past four months:

• i still completely love my job. and based on the amount of time we spend together and things we do i'm in a relationship with sarah [the blonde]. work. late night study groups. cafe rio and chipotle. movies. happy hour sushi. sleepovers. running. shopping. good think i really enjoy her! 

• i still have a 4.0! but i spend absurdly long days at school. like I leave at 7:15 am and get home around 9:00 pm about three days a week. i have class, work and i am now seeing clients. it is hard. and i am not good at it. but i'm learning. and i think i like it. [picture is late night in the elevator leaving the clinic.]

• i went home for spring break and aubrey came to visit me in vegas. 

• i visited my sister in cedar city and met her puppy miley. 

• i'm "running to london". i put a dollar in a jar for every mile i run. my plan is to go during spring break next year. i doubt my money will be enough to pay for my whole ticket but my hope is to have it be enough for my spending money. my goal to become a runner. i'm signed up for a 5k and a 10k in the next few months so no turning back. i've lost 15 pounds since the start of the year. super happy. 

• i went to san diego for the first time. 

• i hiked to the top of lone mountain.

• my family and i went to tuacahn and to the shakespeare festival and had a lovely weekend. 

• i learned to wakeboard. 

There were a million other things but like I said - this was meant to be a fast and quick catchup. My intentions, but no promises is to be good about blogging again. We'll see. But there are a few things from my past four months!